Unwell by Matchbox Twenty

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something

I slept all day yesterday. It was beautiful. I didn’t have to get down from my bed once. But I did make myself get up at 5:30 pm to take care of some things. And so that I would be able to sleep at night.

Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a breakdown
And I don't know why

The only problem with giving into my reclusive tendencies is it makes it so much harder to be in public. I quickly become accustomed to being the only one around.

[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

I'm talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow I've lost my mind

I went for a walk and to the mall. It was fun to people watch. But it was even more enjoyable to be alone. I was alone with my thoughts. No one was affected by me. But I am the person who walks down the street mouthing lyrics to herself so that might not be true.

[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away

[Chorus]
But I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I'll wake up on days I don't want to. I'll do things I don't want to do. I'll improve. And one day I'll show a different side of me. A side that's well.

P.S. I published Chapter 1 of my NaNoWriMo on wattpad. At www.wattpad.com/story/28526999-queen-of-the-socialites. I'm proud of myself.