Wednesday, September 27, 2023

Memories of an Early Childhood Trauma

 22 months


Everyone is at dinner. Mom, Dad, Grey (brother, 17 years older), Blue (brother 16 years older), Indigo (sister, 6 years older), Emerald (sister, 4 years older). This never happened. This was different.


And yet, I’m so annoyed.


Their mouths keep moving but no sound comes out. They sit with their mouths wide open, no longer eating. They shake but no sound.


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27 months


It’s a better day. I can hear a bit today.


Mommy holds my hand as I walk down a long, dark hallway. I’m placed in a chair. The room is dark and cold. Mommy is no longer in sight.


A long, cold metal thing enters my ear. In one, swivel. In the other, swivel. And suddenly, there’s noise everywhere.