Monday, September 15, 2014

Kristy, are you doing okay?

I know this song is about someone sexually abused. But it has a different meaning for me.

(There’s a moment in time
And it’s stuck in my mind
Way back, when we were just kids

'Cause your eyes told the tale
Of an act of betrayal
I knew that somebody did)

Little girls are supposed to have daddies. A man who loves Mom and protects the house. They're not supposed to be distant. They're not supposed to change to "dad" when you're still a kid. But daddy only visited. He wasn't in the house. Daddy became "just dad" before you were old enough to understand the hidden meaning.

(Oh, waves of time
Seem to wash away
The scenes of our crimes
For you this never ends

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy, are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away)

Don't take it out on yourself. Your skin is too pretty to be covered in scratches. Your mind is too powerful to be used for lies. You might end up believing them.

(Though the marks on your dress
Had been neatly repressed
I knew that something was wrong
And I should have spoke out
And I’m so sorry now
I didn’t know
'Cause we were so young)

I watched everyday as you fell a little further away. I didn't tell anyone the things that you said or did. I didn't think it was that bad. I didn't think that it mattered.

(Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy, are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away)

One day, the only sense of relief went away. You didn't realize the impact it would have until far too late. You didn't realize how important her things were until they were lost or thrown away. Your mother was gone and your childhood over. You grew up in a day. Don't act like a child to make up for what was taken away.

(Oh, clouds of time
Seem to rain on
Innocence left behind
And it never goes away (It never goes away)
It never goes away

Can you stay strong?
Can you go on?
Kristy, are you doing okay?
A rose that won’t bloom
Winter’s kept you
Don’t waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away)

I'm sorry I didn't say anything. I didn't let anyone know and still haven't because I thought it was best. If you wanted me to, you would have told me. You raised yourself and know yourself. I'm sorry I let you go through it all by yourself, my dear Purple Owl.

Start to love yourself now. Purple Owl, please be okay.

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